am i the unsung hero..???

it's already 3 am..Saturday, 13 august 2011.. i cant sleep and still thinking

about my future actually..

i dun know wat tomorrow will bring

tapi hakikatnya, i am scared..

hanya untuk fikirkan masa depan sudah cukup untuk meranapkan semangat yg aku ada untuk hari esok.. damn, thus, i stick with my belief, tat life is hard...

someone said to me, tat i am a very lucky girl

im going to be rich someday..

wah dgr je tat words, i felt damn happy,

harapkan apa yg dia katakan will come true

oppsss it's more to 'it's true' than 'come true'

tapi, yelah it juz words, said by someone who's not own d future

besides, dia bukan peramal pun..

im a law students, but i dun feel tat i have wat it takes to be good in my field..

i wanna be somebody but i am nobody..

law, most people will relate it to lawyer.. yelah asal ambik law je mesti nk jd lawyer kn..

asal org tny, 'awk ambik pe?', n bila djawab 'sy ambik law'

reaksi nyer mesti : 'owh bakal lawyer la ni?'

ha! tu normal, xyah nk nafikan..

aku pun senyum, tapi minda aku akn mula berkata2

"i wish i can b a lawyer"

but do i have wat it take to be a lawyer?

my heart say : 'i dun know'

im not good in english, in fact, dlm kelas pun, i can be label as dumbness student

im not confident with myself..

shit... am i juz a pretty face without brain..?? (malangnya muka pun xcantik)

kt sini, aku xmalu nk ckp yg aku cemburukan one of my fren..

yes, i admit tat i am jealous of her..

how i wish she know n realize tat she is good as she is now supaya dia xrasa down wit her life..

dear, u r far more better than me..

at least appreciate ur talent u have inside..

unlike me, i feel damn burden whenever i think about my unseen future..

to think bout my future is enough to make me feel dark, sad and cold..

the feeling is full of sadness..

damn, am i that pathetic ..??