u dark shadow

what i want is simple.. i don't wanna get lost in a bright light..!!

hush now dear..u have run for hours now..but do you really know where you're going to..??
u know..???

coz i know
i want to go to that bright light but it seem that i can't make my way there..
my legs are so heavy, i can't even move it..
damn, am i drowning on this dry street..??

i look around..oh my, it so dark..quite..
shit!! it's creepy
aren't u with me..?? then why u just look at me and doing nothing..??
please talk to me...!!

please take me to that bright light..
oh my, there are lots of laughing, happy people..
owh there, i can see a happy family..
u see it too right..??
damn..i want to be part of it..
hurry, bring me there..
HURRY!! why u just stand here..???
take me to that place.. cant u hear me..??

i wanna go to that bright light
im sure i'll find my life there
i want to learn how to smile and laugh
i want to feel how to love and be loved
i've heard before, than it such a wonderful feeling
isn't it..??
have u ever feel it..???
have u..??
damn, u silent again...!!
im talking to u, cant u listen??

well, that's it.. i'll talk to u no more
i don't wanna be with u anymore, u dark shadow
sorry to say, but im sick of u
i wanna leave u
and go to that bright light
and find myself back

that's it, let me go now
let go off my legs..
GO!!
let me be free
stop hunting me, u dark shadow..!!

fuuuhhhh.....!!!

isn't it cool...?????

am i the unsung hero..???

it's already 3 am..Saturday, 13 august 2011.. i cant sleep and still thinking

about my future actually..

i dun know wat tomorrow will bring

tapi hakikatnya, i am scared..

hanya untuk fikirkan masa depan sudah cukup untuk meranapkan semangat yg aku ada untuk hari esok.. damn, thus, i stick with my belief, tat life is hard...

someone said to me, tat i am a very lucky girl

im going to be rich someday..

wah dgr je tat words, i felt damn happy,

harapkan apa yg dia katakan will come true

oppsss it's more to 'it's true' than 'come true'

tapi, yelah it juz words, said by someone who's not own d future

besides, dia bukan peramal pun..

im a law students, but i dun feel tat i have wat it takes to be good in my field..

i wanna be somebody but i am nobody..

law, most people will relate it to lawyer.. yelah asal ambik law je mesti nk jd lawyer kn..

asal org tny, 'awk ambik pe?', n bila djawab 'sy ambik law'

reaksi nyer mesti : 'owh bakal lawyer la ni?'

ha! tu normal, xyah nk nafikan..

aku pun senyum, tapi minda aku akn mula berkata2

"i wish i can b a lawyer"

but do i have wat it take to be a lawyer?

my heart say : 'i dun know'

im not good in english, in fact, dlm kelas pun, i can be label as dumbness student

im not confident with myself..

shit... am i juz a pretty face without brain..?? (malangnya muka pun xcantik)

kt sini, aku xmalu nk ckp yg aku cemburukan one of my fren..

yes, i admit tat i am jealous of her..

how i wish she know n realize tat she is good as she is now supaya dia xrasa down wit her life..

dear, u r far more better than me..

at least appreciate ur talent u have inside..

unlike me, i feel damn burden whenever i think about my unseen future..

to think bout my future is enough to make me feel dark, sad and cold..

the feeling is full of sadness..

damn, am i that pathetic ..??

world is spinning around

haha..apa la yg setiap manusia fikirkan..? pelik, makin lama kita hidup, makin ramai manusia yang pelbagai ragam kita jumpa.. tambah2 lagi bila kita bekerja dalam bidang yang memberi perkhidmatan kepada masyarakat bukan nak kata apa, kadang2 manusia ni, bila berada di atas, mereka cenderung lupa akan asas kehidupan mereka..(yg sebenarnya asas mereka tu tanah jugak) dah nak masuk sebulan juga aku bekerja dalam bidang yang memberi perkhidmatan haha actually jadi waitress je... see.."waitress je" tulah manusia, mentang2 la keje org tu juz ambik order, angkat sisa makanan, org tu dikira low class la..??

xyah nk geleng kepala la.. it's obvious from ur eyes.. i know u meant it "low class" huh..?? tolong la..waitress n waiter pun ada pride n dignity ok.. sekurang2nyer keje tu halal xyah la nk pandang kami ni mcm la kami ni mintak korang suapkan nasi kt mulut kami xyah nk panggil kami mcm korng panggil kucing or any pets korng makan n xyah nk marah2 kami mcm la kami ni mintak duit belanja dari korng bagi aku, kerje tu mulia, tolong antar makanan n bersihkan sisa mknan (xke korang rasa mcm tu?)

mmgla kita bayar, n kita ada hak utk kerek dgn pelayan2 ni, tp cuba bygkan if mknan yg kita mkn tu tlh disumpah2 oleh pelayan2 yang antar mknan tu..?? kan xbest mcm tu, ptut la sakit perut (but well, to my customers, dun worry, sy pnh lg wat MCM tu k haha) tp diakui, ada gak pelayan2 yg xjauh kerek nyer..mcm la kita, si customer ni xmampu kn..?? haha so bg aku, masing2 ada timbal balik nyer pokoknyer, xyah nk kerek2.. juz act cool jelah regardless, u as a customer or as a waitress/waiter n lg satu, xsemua waitress/waiter tu bodoh k..!! nth2 lg tinggi education nya dr kita, customer ni..

pe2 pun, marilah kita sama2 hidup saling hormat menghormati k..

xkira la tua or muda.. (cehh bunyi mcm baik n wise gile)